Wednesday, March 25, 2015

My Story, My Path: Understanding eating disorders, Changes and Recovery

It has been about a month now, since the first time I went on to get therapy for Binge eating, one of the few things I've noticed in some of the closest people around me, is the even though they understand the concept of eating disorder, they don't know what to do or how to help. Let me tell you, you'll need a LOT of help from other people like your family and closest friends to get through recovery.

Trying to understand why someone does something to themselves, is not easy especially when it comes to parents, but you need to talk it out with your family. Sometimes it might be hard, but it's not the end of the world and the faster they understand it and your feelings, its starts to get a little bit easier for the recovery part. When I told my closest friends about this, some of them were amazed, they couldn't believe it, and then some of them just didn't know how to react.
It really depends on you if you want to tell your friends about it, but in my case, I love my friends and I know they will be there for me no matter what. After telling them, I asked some of them (like my bffs and the ones I spend more time with) that I need them to help me out. In my case I tend not to sleep much, and the binging starts at night, everyone in my family falls asleep earlier than me, so when I start to feel like I'm about to get out of control, or most of the times I already got out of control, I call them, to talk, basically trying to distract myself from it, sometimes it works sometimes it doesn't so I just get in the shower at 3 am... (btw I think water is my element it calms me down that's why I do it).

For those of you out there that want to understand or at least get a better picture, all eating disorders are the same, and most of them connect in some ways. By the same I mean this, all the feelings of lack of self-control, the dieting, the looking in the mirror and not feeling good, and many other stuff is the same in all of them, and sometimes they connect, someone can be binge eating and then they throw up, or they don't eat all day long and then binge eat, it's all connected and it's all under one roof.

I've always had anxiety, that is one of the biggest factors on my case. Since the day I started therapy I was already more positive about all the changes I could make, and how to make them, the thing I realized latter on, its easier said than done... who would've known right?
Part of therapy are some readings and exercises you need to make, I remember that one of them was making a list of the things that I'm afraid of, why I think I tend to binge eat, and then setting goals to change them.
That little paperwork has done it's number on me. I'm a research kind of girl, I like to know things, get more reviews about stuff, get different views on things, so the first thing I did was investigate about the disorder and things that can help with recovery. It's all a mental game, so I started to meditate, try to relax, at least twice a day for 10 minutes each. It's hard, I'm really hyper so just sitting down breathing without trying to move or think about something else, was hard, strange and sometimes I felt out of place, but I kept doing it, and I think I'm getting better at it.
Besides that the greatest thing I found was an app, it's called Rise Up Recovery it has pretty cool features and it's definitely the major reason I'm started to control myself a little bit better.

First of, It always has several positive phrases to get started. Positivity is a huge part of recovery.
Also the check In is where you put how you are felling and the "amount" your feeling it. 

In actions, it has if you've one anything like binge, expressed gratitude, purged and other stuff, you need to add drugs or medication you've done, and then it also has notes.



When it comes to the things you've been eating I believe this is the best app, you can indicate the time you are eating your meals, how you feel, if you ate with company, where you ate, what you ate, it also has notes and an option for when you skip a meal. Again it has the target behaviors, where you can honestly put what you have done before or after the meal.



Coping Skills are a few positive advises and exercises you can do to get better, which is actually pretty cool. Setting you can find the option of setting reminder, the times where you want to eat and it keeps you eating small portions, but all day long. I think this is one of the reasons why this app it's my favorite, it keeps me under control, as soon as a eat anything I write down, if i'm feeling anxious I put in there, and look for advise. I t all about wanting the change!



The time for a change starts with yourself, you decide if you want to keep on hurting yourself or not, I decided to change!

Monday, March 23, 2015

Tarte Tartalette Palette Review

As you all probably know, I'm a Make Up Artist/ Beauty Blogger, so trying out new products is what I do (yes, it is a excuse) anyway, Tarte has been one of the biggest brands I've seen and I've always wanted to try their freaking amazing Amazonian Clay blushes, but I've always thought they are a little bit expensive, let's get real, I'm not a millionaire to be spending $30 on a blush, so I've waited to actually get something that was worth the money.

I've seen so many Youtubers talk about this Tartalette palette and how they all love it, so I decided to jump in with everyone else and buy the palette. When I got it I was surprise, it wasn't what I expected, I don't know if this just happens to me, but everything seems so much bigger on YouTube, that's why I was so surprised. 


I love the whole concept of the palette. The mirror like gold packaging caught my eye since i first saw it and then the ombré purple that has a the top makes it really easy to fall in love with it. On the inside it has the same gold like mirror and it has a huge mirror


This specific Tartalette palette has 12 eyeshadows on it, each is 0.053 Oz. All of them are matte, and it's range of colors it's for everyone. It has warm, cool and neutral colors. Super-pigmented eyeshadows, easy to blend and they are amazing for everyday use and for smokey eyes.
The first row are warm colors, the second row are cool toned and the third row is a bit a mix, but mostly they are neutral.

From left to right: Free Spirit, Force of Nature, Dreamer, Multi-Tasker, Caregiver, Natural Beauty, Best Friend, Bombshell, Super Mom, Wanderer, Power Player, Fashionista.

The Lights

From Bottom to top

These three are a bit more powder-y than the rest, but still blend to perfection. They are perfect to use as highlighters, wash of color or to be the main color on the eyelid.
  • Free Spirit: Yellow tone, perfect for darker girls to use as a highlighter.
  • Caregiver: Pink-y light, perfect to brighten your eyes.
  • Super Mom: Vanilla like color, perfect to do a light wash on the eyelid. 

The Transition

From Bottom to top

These three color are great for the transitional color on the crease, the transitional color is no meant to really be noticeable, but it helps blend any other darker color that's going to be put on the crease.
  • Force of Nature: light yellow-y brown with peachy undertones to it. Also works great to put to the bottom lash line to open up the eyes (for everyday use).
  • Natural Beauty: light brown with purple undertones to it, great to add a bit more color to any brown or black smokey eye.
  • Wanderer: a mustard-y neutral color, this is seriously perfect to blend any eyeshadow on the crease.

The Creases

From Bottom to top.

These are perfect for the crease, all over the crease, as a cut crease, anything in the crease of your eyes.
  • Dreamer: Medium Brown, I see it like a neutral brown, it's perfect to give more definition to the eyes.
  • Best Friend: Medium Purple, again this is perfect to give a little pop of color without it being too much.
  • Power Player: Medium brown, cool toned, perfect to use as a liner to give more definition to the eyes. 

The Showoffs

From Bottom to top
These color are heaven on hearth, perfect for the outer corners of our eyes or just the base of a smokey eye.

  • Multi-Tasker: warm tone dark brown, this color for me is perfect for an everyday brown smokey eye.
  • Bombshell: Dark purple, this looks great as a pop of color on the bottom lash line or as a liner.
  • Fashionista: Black, it looks kind of green on the picture, but it is a true black, easy to blend, perfect for smokey eyes, outer corners or just to blend any black eyeliner on the bottom lash line.

At the end of the day, just buy it, this palette is perfect, it has all the color you pretty much need for work or a party, is easy to carry and amazingly beautiful to look at, so... what are you waiting for?

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

My Story, My path: Binge-Eating Disorder & Inspiring others

In the last few months a lot of things have happened in my life that have given such a huge weight on my shoulders, it hasn't been easy and it has destroyed me, little by little. We are getting personal here, I'm telling a few of the things that I have being going through but remember there are still somethings that are too personal and involve a lot of other people that I'm not in the place to share. 

I told you before, that I wanted to change the blog and make it more lifestyle. A few of the things that I've being going through are not easy but I want you guys to come with me through the process and inspire other girls and boys to help each other, to stop judging and to be a good person.

I don't know about you guys, but i'm not an angel. I have been bullied and I had bullied others as well, not good at all, but I want to change that, move on and Keep moving forward (my life motto), the simple reason for this, the recent diagnose of an eating disorder.

Getting into my Story:

Now let me explain a few things, I've always had Anxiety and no, it's not a way of getting attention, is not easy to control, but you kind of learn to live with it, or at least that was what I was thinking until recently. Also, I've always eaten when I get sad or when I'm nervous and that it one of the things that caused me to be oblivious to the fact that I was eating about everything, honestly it didn't matter if I was happy or sad, every single emotion I feel or felt, for me is related with food. A lot of things started to catching up with me, and food was my way out, until I realized I needed help, I couldn't control myself, sometimes I felt lost (Honestly I still do) and the lack of will is sometimes to much to handle. 

The Diagnose:

If you haven't notice already, the Eating disorder is Binge-Eating. I asked my family for help and let me tell realizing and asking for help is not easy, when you think about it is admitting that you are weak in some way, that there is something in you that is wrong, is no fun. But you'll soon realize you are not alone, which is very important. After I started treatment with a psychologist, I realized that is not a weakness, is just a stone in the road I'm walking, trying to stay positive is the BIGGEST goal I have. I have to set a reminder for myself that I need to be positive, to control myself, to let go of things. I'm one of those that keeps everything on the inside until one day I just burst. 

Inspire Each Other:

B.E.D is like any other eating disorder, you've got the same feelings, feel the same awkwardness with your body, fell conscious all the time of it, you lack control, I'm still in the process of recovery and hopefully I'll get there, I just want to say this to anyone that is out there, eating disorder or not, mental illness or not, YOU ARE NOT ALONE, I know is hard but ask for help, help others in order to also help yourself, don't judge because you don't know what path the others have been trough and it's not your place to do so. 

BTW, My Story, My Path it's going to be the new weekly, series of blogs posted on Wednesdays, talking about B.E.D, Self esteem, Helping each other, and obviously my process through the eating disorder, I hope you enjoy!
If you have any questions don't forget to leave them in the comments below! 
See you soon Loves, 
Marya Zamora.

Thursday, March 5, 2015

MUA Luxe Velvet Lip Lacquer Review

Hi everyone! Long time no see, I just wanted to give you a little, I don't know, disclaimer, I've been dealing with some personal stuff that hasn't allow me to be on youtube or in here,  and I will be explaining why and the whole process that I've been going through and many other things, but for today I wanted to give you guys this review on these Lip lacquers.

MUA Luxe Velvet Lip Lacquers

First things first (I'm the realest, I-G-G-Y references anybody?) ok, according to the site the description of the product is the following: "Get the ultimate velvet-matte pout with this richly pigmented, silky smooth lip lacquer. the quick-dry formula glides on effortlessly to leave a gorgeous matte finish, that is smudge proof & long lasting". 


When talking about the texture they have, I don't know if it because they are velvet or because my lips are hella dry, but they feel kind of weird, it has a creamy texture to it, but when it starts to dry it starts to feel a little bit different, it's kind of hard to explain, but that consistency I think is the only thing that I'm not really comfortable with. 


I love this packaging it kind of looks really expensive, but you can be sure it won't break, or maybe mine have super powers because I've dropped them A LOT. Ooops, clumsy girl, but it demonstrated that the packaging is actually really good. Oh, yeah and the doe-foot applicator makes it easier to follow the lines on the lips, which makes my life easier. They are 6ml each, so it is a normal size amount of product. 


HELLA PIGMENTED, that was going to be all I was going to say, but the brightest orange kind of went a little patchy on me, but nothing really noticeable, so I'm fine with it. You'll be able to see the pigmentation in the video!

Quick-Dry formula/ Smudge proof and Long Lasting Claims:

it dries really fast, which is actually a good thing, it's not necessary to apply to coats of it because it is really pigmented, but i like it really REALLY opaque, when it comes to smudge proof, for the first few minutes obviously is not, but when it dries, damn that stuff is not going anywhere... until you freaking drink or eat. It is more Long lasting than normal lipsticks but is not like 12 hour wear, so you'll need to re-apply it throughout the day. When it fades, it fades weirdly on me and I mean weirdly because any other lipstick for me fades from the outside to the inside, and this ones fade from the inside out, which I have no idea why but I found it interesting. 

I have gone to work with this Lacquers on and they have lasted me a really long time in all of my running around and talking to everyone, so I think they are amazing, and let's get real here for a second YOU CAN'T BEAT THE PRICE! In the MUA site the Lip Lacquers are  3 GBP  and $4.61 USD and here are some pictures of the product itself!













At the top is Atomic below it from left to right Funk, Kooky, Dare, Reckless and the last one is Criminal